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The Simple Beauty of a Monday Birthday Bookmark and Share

The Simple Beauty of a Monday Birthday

When my alarm started singing at 5:30 this morning, I quickly hit snooze and snuggled under the covers to lament about how Monday is the worst day to have a birthday.

Calling in sick on your birthday is highly suspicious, so I pulled my groggy butt out of bed and attempted to prepare myself for the first day of what will be an exhausting week.

In recent years I’ve started this weird habit on my birthday of asking myself, “If I died today, would I be happy?” It sounds morbid, but it helps keep me honest.

 Today’s ...

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Learning to Walk Across Invisible Strings Bookmark and Share

In two days, I will head to Colorado for a girlfriend weekend with 10 friends. We’ve rented a house to celebrate the 40th birthdays of three of us.

It is a tradition begun when the first of us turned 40. There will be laughing, eating, drinking, inappropriate and weird conversations, and more laughing.

For three months, I have looked forward to this trip, but this week I’ve felt oddly apprehensive about this first visit back to my old home.

My life in Milwaukee is nothing like the one I left in Colorado, but it somehow fits better. Not ...

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Celebrating 40 After the Year of No Fear Bookmark and Share

Until I hit 39 nearly every decision (or lack of decision) in my life had been directly or indirectly based on fear. Fear of isolation, loneliness, success, emotions, instability. You name a fear and I can probably tell you a decision I made based on it.

Last October as I approached my last year in my 30s, I finally said “fuck fear.” (Sorry for the profanity, but fear is powerful and you need a strong word to combat it.) I deemed my 39th year “the year of no fear.”

In two days I turn 40 and as I look at ...

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Alone in a crowd on my birthday Bookmark and Share

Nothing makes me feel more alone than eating by myself. I would love to be one of those people who can go to dinner or the movies alone. I have a friend who even goes to concerts alone. But that is not me. Being alone generally leads me to loneliness.

So, as I sat alone today for both breakfast and lunch in a crowded cafeteria at a yoga conference, I had to push back the inevitable, deep-rooted insecurities that cropped up. Feelings made even stronger by the fact that today is my birthday.

The reality is that I chose solitude ...

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